Not dreaming.
Not obsessing.
Not worrying.
Not planning.
Not railing against the unfairness of it all.
Not thinking positive.
Not visualizing success.
Not bargaining with the Universe.
Not feeling hopeful.
Not feeling much of anything but sad.
Ugh... I know how ou feel, been there too many times to count. I am so sorry and I am thinking about you!
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ReplyDeleteHugs to you <3
ReplyDeleteSometimes, feeling much of anything takes entirely too much effort.
ReplyDeleteWhoa, that sounded so emo and bottle-of-sleeping-pills-and-vodka. That's not how I meant it. Just that strong emotions, or active emotions, are sometimes just too much to want to have.
Just a thought.... I know they docs may recommend that now's the time to move on to IVF. BUT, I know plenty of women who, for lack of coverage, have tried additional IUIs in the meantime. Is that something you'd consider? Maybe not. I know I only did 2 and didn't want to exhaust myself any further with the protocols and disappointments. Sending you hugs and love, dear. So glad to see you're working through all of these emotions. I mostly just feel the sadness these days, too.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, Slackie. I know how it feels to be too sad to feel anymore. I so hope that this is your last sad step before IVF brings you your dreams.
ReplyDeleteI understand that place, sometimes all of the emotions are just too much effort- apart from sadness, that one just quietly dwells. I truly hope that things improve from here for you. Plenty of people do have success on their first IVF. If nothing else, I will sit here having hope for you until you can again!
ReplyDeleteI hope this sadness lifted. you put how I feel into beautiful words and made me feel less alone today. thank you.
ReplyDeleteHugs, Slackie. I hope the hope and good things are headed your way very, very soon.
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