Nothing new to report, no cycle progress, no funny stories to tell.
Work hell continues, but will let up considerably after this week. I try not to talk much about my work online, because that's not really what this space is about, but it's kinda all consuming at the moment. I've even been dreaming about work stuff and I really resent it. I have to take a day trip on Wednesday which will be exhausting and mind-numbing all at once, but at least I'll be home and sleeping in my own bed at the end of the day (technically very early the next morning, but that would be splitting hairs). I'm not a great traveler. I like being other places, but I don't enjoy the process of getting there/back. Airplanes make me anxious and nauseated. And I have to admit, as much as I appreciate my immediate coworkers, I have trouble relating to them on a personal level and this makes me feel very isolated and lonely, very "other". Throw travel into the mix, and it's not a fabulous day.
Aaaannnnddd... I have some serious thinking to do about my job. It was originally supposed to be a foot in the door, to get me in with this great employer. Now it's been two years, and I'm pretty comfortable in my position. Maybe too comfortable. I've learned a lot and built some new skills and confidence. I'm really quite lucky in the people I work with on a daily basis, but there are certainly aspects of my work that make me want to bash my head against the wall. For all that, the thought of leaving my department is scary, but it's the only way I'll be able to move up at all (if I even decide that I want to move up). But with the whole IF thing still in mid-air, do I really want to try making a big change? I just don't know, so I'll sit on it for a while and revisit the question in a few months perhaps. I have made a preliminary investigation, and didn't really find any appealing open positions elsewhere in the company, so it's not as if I feel like I'm missing out on anything in particular at the moment.
When I get up (later) Thursday morning, we'll head to our teaching appointment and get our official Plan. I'd like to just skip to that, please.