Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Cancelled

After our last monitoring appointment, it was fairly clear that we weren't going all the way to retrieval, even without knowing the estrogen level. We were obviously feeling daunted and beaten down.

The sun was shining, there was a scattering of little fluffy clouds and a light breeze. Such a beautiful day and such a disappointment. We stopped at the curb for a quick hug before heading into our respective days. Suddenly, I could not abide the thought of driving into work and sitting at my computer all day and the tears started.

My dear, sweet Professor gave me a big squeeze and suggested we go for a walk in the park that backs onto the medical complex where our RE has his office. So we walked along the tree line till we found a gap, and picked our way through, dress pants/shoes and all. We didn't go far and we didn't talk about anything in particular, but by the time we picked our way back through the brush to the parking lot, a few of the clouds had blown away and the day seemed a little less bleak.

When I texted him to let him know we were officially cancelled, he replied, "We've still got each other."

I love my husband.

12 comments:

  1. love to both of you, your husband sounds amazing.

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  2. *hugs* so much love coming your way

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  3. So sorry for the canceled cycle. Big disappointment. But your husband is right -- you do have each other... and us!

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  4. shoot, i am so sorry. but yah, when our first go at ivf got cancelled, it was all i could do to bask in the love of my hubby to get me through the days...

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  5. He sounds like a wonderful man. I'm very glad you have each other, too.

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  6. I am so sad your cycle was canceled. I hope they have a plan for next time so this doesn't happen again. Your husband is very sweet!

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  7. You are very lucky to have such a good man.

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  8. I love your husband too! (you know, in a long distance, oh that's so sweet kind of way).
    The one thing I've gotten through this whole gross journey is the realization that my marriage is stronger than ever. I'm so sorry this cycle was cancelled, but I'm so happy for you that you have such an amazing marriage. It's something to hang on to, and be grateful for every day.
    xoxo!

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  9. What a dear, sweet man. That is such a special thing, so happy to hear it but yet terribly sorry you were cancelled. Much love to you.

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  10. I'm so sorry. Sending positive thoughts your way!

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  11. I'm sorry sweetie :-(
    Your husand sounds so sweet, keep him close, together you are stronger.
    Moon x

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