At Last, 2010 in Re(ar)view

My first instinct is to say "... and good riddance!" but I have to admit that we learned a lot from this past year. There was a lot of SUCK in 2010, but there was a lot of love too.

• We are both gainfully employed, and even had a good year financially.
• I got to see BFF(H), which doesn't happen nearly as often as I'd like.
• I discovered the incredible IF community support, first on Twitter and then here in Blogland, without which I would certainly have run screaming mad months ago. Love y'all. Seriously.
• All of our parental units are safe and healthy, and we got to spend time with them.
• We are knocking out our debts one by one.
• Given all that we've been through, the Professor and I are in a good place in our relationship. We haven't suffered in that respect due to this IF journey.

I would like to think that starting 2010 with the news that the pregnancy wasn't viable was an omen for the year to come, and this year is getting a better start already. I guess that's the silver lining to not being pregnant right now... I can't possibly start this New Year with a miscarriage!

I don't do resolutions, never have and I won't start now. We haven't cycled since September (wow - that's hard to wrap my mind around), and at this point it looks like it will be late January before we get another shot. I have been strangely at peace with this whole situation for a while now. I am doing what I can on the most efficient time line I can manage, and that needs to be enough. I need to stop dwelling on obstacles and failures, and focus on Life.

I would like to think of 2011 as the Year of Letting Go. Whatever your hopes are for this New Year, my hope for you is a spirit of peace with whatever your future holds. I know that is my hope for myself.