Friday, December 31, 2010

At Last, 2010 in Re(ar)view

My first instinct is to say "... and good riddance!" but I have to admit that we learned a lot from this past year. There was a lot of SUCK in 2010, but there was a lot of love too.
  • We are both gainfully employed, and even had a good year financially.
  • I got to see BFF(H), which doesn't happen nearly as often as I'd like.
  • I discovered the incredible IF community support, first on Twitter and then here in Blogland, without which I would certainly have run screaming mad months ago. Love y'all. Seriously.
  • All of our parental units are safe and healthy, and we got to spend time with them.
  • We are knocking out our debts one by one.
  • Given all that we've been through, the Professor and I are in a good place in our relationship. We haven't suffered in that respect due to this IF journey.
I would like to think that starting 2010 with the news that the pregnancy wasn't viable was an omen for the year to come, and this year is getting a better start already. I guess that's the silver lining to not being pregnant right now... I can't possibly start this New Year with a miscarriage!

I don't do resolutions, never have and I won't start now. We haven't cycled since September (wow - that's hard to wrap my mind around), and at this point it looks like it will be late January before we get another shot. I have been strangely at peace with this whole situation for a while now. I am doing what I can on the most efficient time line I can manage, and that needs to be enough. I need to stop dwelling on obstacles and failures, and focus on Life.

I would like to think of 2011 as the Year of Letting Go. Whatever your hopes are for this New Year, my hope for you is a spirit of peace with whatever your future holds. I know that is my hope for myself.


  1. Amen to letting go, and to finding peace. Wishing you a happy and healthy 2011.

  2. Great post! I love that you have reframed things into a positive light. "Let it go" is one of my personal commandments, but I think my 2011 theme is going to be "get busy living". Good luck for your next cycle, are you sticking with iui or planning ivf? Whichever, I hope it brings you great success!! Happy New Year xx

  3. I'm glad you're finding peace with all of this. It can be so elusive. Letting go is a good mantra for 2011.

  4. Happy new year! I hope that 2011 brings you much peace.

  5. Happy New Year! I hope that 2011 brings you everything you want. Good luck on your upcoming cycles.

  6. Sounds like you got your head in a great place for the start of 2011. Hope this year is good to you my friend.