Saturday, November 3, 2012

A-Feared

I'm so scared that this will be another one of those cycles, where just enough goes RIGHT before it all goes wrong... leaving us feeling like we really should dig just a little deeper and give it another shot. Funny. It only rarely occurs to me that things might only go right, and then that little voice says, "Yeah, sure. I've got a bridge you might be interested in as well."

This time last year, I was processing the fact that my ovaries were out of the game. We spent nearly three months debating the decision between walking away and getting on with a childfree future versus one last hurrah with donor eggs. Ultimately, the whole point of moving to donor eggs was to reach a place where we wouldn't feel like we should have done something more.

I'm afraid of the cycle failing, but being left feeling like there's more we could try.

8 comments:

  1. I hope it doesn't come to that <3

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  2. Sending you all the positive wishes in the world!

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  3. Really hoping that this cycle is the one.

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  4. I'm really rooting for this cycle to be "the one." But certainly know how you feel. Abiding with you and (((hugs)))

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  5. I'm focusing all good thoughts, positivity and hope your way. Sometimes the impossible happens and it all does go perfectly right.

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  6. I've said it before, but it needs to be said again (and again)... your well of strength is incredible. I so hope that you don't need to draw on it for much longer. LB

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  7. I went to see Marisa Peer a few years ago when I was in the grip of secondary infertility and feeling extremely down and stressed out by the whole process of trying to conceive. Her sessions were amazing and totally changed the way I approached trying to get pregnant. The negativity and fear faded away and I felt a renewed positivity and confidence that I would conceive and stay pregnant.
    As read marisa's book Trying to get Pregnant (and Succeeding)Ias embarked on IVF and on my first cycle became pregnant with triplets! I feel that Marisa played a hugely positive role in helping me to have another baby (well, three!) and I feel very, very lucky to have found her. Her methods work.

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