Saturday, September 8, 2012

Hurry Up and Wait

Our donor got her period and we are both on BCP now. Yes, it IS pretty weird to think that she is somewhere across town gearing up for this cycle and she too is hoping we get a take-home baby. We have a tentative calendar. I take my BCP from today and start my other meds in October. We are targeting to transfer in early November and hope to know the outcome by American Thanksgiving.

Since this will be our first time doing a transfer, it will also be our first experience with PIO. I have already been informed by the nurse that I will take my PIO in the AM and progesterone supps in the PM. Not either/or. It has to be both. I am pushing to have those reversed as I would much prefer to do the PIO in the evening when I can sulk on a heating pad afterwards rather than rushing off to work for the day. She did say she would ask the doctor.

We have updated our families and they are suitably excited. We aren't giving out specific information like exact timelines. I just don't want to feel like I need to send out a newsletter every time we have an appointment or a call from the RE. Unfortunately, I feel like I'm having some trouble managing my father's expectations. He is just SO excited...

I also told my BFF (once again, just the basics). She kept asking, "How do you feel about this?" Honestly, I didn't even know how to answer that. Anxious, excited, hopeful, scared... mostly disbelieving and a little "blank" inside. Clearly I'm protecting myself from a negative outcome. It's just that it's still so hard to imagine anything working for us. She said to me, "It will feel more real when you see the positive." I replied that I think maybe it would feel more real at 24 weeks. I could tell from the look on her face that she gets it.

8 comments:

  1. Really hoping that you get a take home baby out of this donor egg cycle.

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  2. Ha ha, I think you are right. almost 18 weeks here, and still can't believe this is real. (But seeing the positive did help)(losing one did not help though)
    wishing you loads of luck and patience.

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  3. I'm very full of hope for you and this cycle. I am so happy for you and I'm so thankful you are taking us all on this journey with you.

    <3

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  4. keeping you in my thoughts and prayers that you get a take home baby....

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  5. I understand the not believing that it could ever happen, but I have so much hope for you that it does!

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  6. What a gift to have a BFF that "gets its." I hope that you can lean on her for support if need be. And I hope that these next 2 months pass quickly and smoothly.

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  7. Wow, things are really moving along now. Good luck! I will be following.

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  8. Fingers crossed. I had a family member get ridiculously over excited for us and in the end it was just easier to be vague, rather than dealing with texts and phone calls immediately after each appointment.

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